Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Fight With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that lasts for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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David Anderson
David Anderson

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